I roll the window down and then begin to breathe..

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checking in again, hope you're all having a great summer.

just wanna give you people a heads up on whats going on with my online/artsy life because i get asked about commissions and trades etc, people always want a timeline, so i will do so... with BOLDNESS >:OOOO

July-August i am doing fundraising for The Garden by selling some avatar chat stuff, and will be taking some custom pose commissions (-only- poses) also for fundraising. this will start next week.
i'm also spending the rest of the summer working on some original character portraits which i'm really excited about, as well as some gift art i've been meaning to do so i might bug a few of you for refs in the coming months... so yea, summer is for fun D:

September is when school starts for me. i'm taking fewer classes this year so i will be slightly less psychotic, and will definitely take some commissions... it will be limited to a number of slots and by subject matter. i enjoy drawing feral, and beast-like characters more than anything else so i will probably be selective of what i will and will not draw... probably not anything straight up furry or anthro, really.

November is midwest furfest...... MAYBE I'LL GO. maybe. i live in Chicago but don't have a car to get out to Wheelingland... its pretty far. and if i'd be bringing art stuff i really don't want to take the subway and train. so i dont know how that would work out.
alsoooo i've never sold art at a con before so i'd want to have an art buddy....to guide me :x

and congrats Foxfeather on being the guest of honor! i hope i get to meet you :3

is it too early to ask who's going to MFF...? i can never do anything unless i plan it months ahead :c

Out of all the movies I've seen and books I've read over the years, and there have been a lot; I can't think of one line from any of them that impacted me more than "We need a bigger boat". from Jaws. It wasn't the opening line from that movie, but those 5 words stuck with me more than any other.

I fogot to mention something in my last entry. I really don't care who sees my phone number. Anyone who sees it can call me. I really don't care. I need all the friends I can talk to. So here is my number again. 347-326-0805. Call anytime. Day or night.
Signing Off

I am not in the best moods right now. I went to get my check at Shea today. That isn't why I'm upset. All I know is I can't give my landlord the whole rent again this week. I can't even give him half. I made out a money order. Yes, I know for a fact I still have it. LOL. remeber the last time I had the money order made? I left it at the check cashing place hen I went back to get it and it was stillt ehre. Well, I made sure this time to put it away while i was still at the window. He isn't going to be happy. I don't know what to do. I've been very depressed the last few days. The only thing in my mind lately was wheteher or not I should kill myself. I've been seeriously thinking about doing that. I've been finding it hard to concentrate to do things. Like sleep and eat. My temper has been even worse than it has been. I don't know how to control it. Like I said,It's getting worse all the time. I've been snapping st everyone at Goodwill. I actually called the Security guard there an asshole. I thought he was laughing at me about something. That's another story I'll get into that another time.
Oh, when I got to work to get my check today, the supervisor told me to be at work onb Sunday at 7am. I asked her what time would I beleaving. She asked me if I had plans. I told her I might have to leave around 1pm. She said not to worry. i can leave thenif I had to. Which was good. I might be able to take the Long Island RailRoad to my unc;es on Sunday. He said, it'll be a long ride. I don't care about that. If I had to, I can take a nap on the train. I've done it before.
Well, that's pretty much it for today. I'll try and write more on Saturday. I know the library is closed tomorrow because of the holiday. And I won't be able to write anything on Sunday, unless my uncle lets me use his computer which is pretty likely.
Until Saturday:
Signing Off

Yes, I have. And noe I never kept it a secret. She always knew how I felt about her. But she was invloved with someone else when I met her. A woman of all things. LOL. I haven't heard from her in a few years. The last I heard she was married to a guy. I know, because I was at the wedding. In fact their anniversary was earlier in June. She lives in Pennsylvania with her husband as far as I know.

I care about my family most. Mostly, my younger broter and sister. Yeah, I'm the oldest. Not that it matters in my family. LOL!

Right now, the plavce I call home is NYC. Even when I lived in Pennsylvania for 8 years I always thought of the Big Apple as home.

lokiheart Comment to be added. But will add most of you anyways.

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So a kid was killed at Six Flags this past weekend when he decided he didn't want to wait to get back into the park from when he was outside in the parking lot eating. He and a friend climbed two 6 foot tall fences with Warning signs and Danger signs everywhere. He was struck by the Batman ride and was decapitated and was killed instantly.


Poor kid, but all I have to say is this...


WHY on EARTH would you EVEN CONSIDER doing that?!! WHY! Why!!! Someone was already killed back in 2002 for that EXACT same reason on that EXACT SAME ride in that VERY SAME PARK. All I wanna know is why. I feel so bad for his family and his friend who witnessed his death. I feel aweful for all of them. I think about it almost everyday because it was so close to me. He was so SO young and was just being an adolescent. I really wish I could have been there that day and seen them climbing the fences, I would have yelled at them so bad. Ughh..

And now apparently their family is suing? On what grounds? I'm sorry, but no amount of money is going to bring back your son. Suing Six Flags will get you NO WHERE. All it's going to to is prolong the pain and extend the process of healing. I'm sorry it happened, but your son was being a complete and utter IDIOT. And how many signs do they have to put up? How tall do the fences have to be? Why on EARTH would you have two teenage boys both agree that it was a good idea? I don't get it. Why would someone from the family blame the park because their son was being a moron and it got him killed? Oye, people these days are just LOOKING for reasons to get money. And I'm disgusted to have to be associated with someone who uses their own family members death to wreak benefits from it. You make me sick.

Rest In Peace, kid.

Hey people. Sorry I haven't been on in a couple of days. I have been kind of busy. It was a fracking mad house this weekend at work. I knew it was going to be busy, but damn!. As i was leaving on Sunday, the supervisor asked me if I wanted to work next Sunday. Without thinking I said i'll do it.Later I remembered that that was the same day as my Uncle's family reunion. I don't know if I was going to be able to get a ride there anyway.
I noticed some people responded to soe of my sntries. thank you for your knd words.I know that sounded a little "hokey". But I needed some encouragement just now. I haven't been i the best of health lately either. I've been feeling kind of dizzy. I'm hoping it has something to do with the weather. But thank you all. I have posted my cell nukber in one of my entries, but here it is again:347 326 0805. I know I shouldn't do that. But I would like to hesr from some of you that responded. You kow who you are.LOL. The computer I'm on won't allow me to look at entries in my friend's journal. So, I can't even respond to them yet. I would like to talk to some of you, though.
Someone suggested going back to school. I wis i can. i'd like to take a class for writing or something like that. I just can't afford to right now. I\ve been writing short stories off and on for a long time. For over 20 years. Mostly Star Trek stories. I have written some non Star Trek ones.
Well, that's pretty much it for now. Like I said, I would liek to hear from some people . Call me anytime.
I'll try and write more later.
Until then:
Signing Off

Right now, I care about family. My brother and sister are the only ones left. My mother, father , adnd stepfather have all died.

Cooking is so much fun.

So My  brother that lives in Mass with my mom got hit the other night by a drunk driver. He was walking somewhere and the guy went onto the sidewalk and knicked him and ran into a pole. THANK GOD he wasn't near the pole or it would have been worse. Hes ok just neck and back pain. I'm going to see him tomorrow fuck work. Family to me comes first.



I made a new character. She is a Celestial Dragon and her name is Loki. Mostly going to be used for art purposes not pose work or Roleplay shit. I need to get away from canines. Reptiles and dragons, FTW.


It always Rains on my parade ;.;. I really hope there will be a time to write something exciting, It seems lately everything in my life is either dieing or just not working out.... I hope my luck changes soon. :/

housematehorror
Horror stories from the world of shared living spaces. EEK!

This is Lacey. I love her, she was there on my last day of work.

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Most people don't breathe most of the time. They let their brainstem take care of that.

Sometimes I remember how nice it is to breathe.

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